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I think that I'm not good
enough. What make others
better than me?
No matter what I do,
I'll be abandoned.
I don't
count. I don't
matter. Everyone else is more
important than me.
What am I doing
here? I want out of
here?
They (my family) are not
like me. Has there been
some kind of mistake? How did
I get here?
What makes older
brothers think that they are better
and more important than
me?
I'm told that God wants
us to come and live with him in the
sky after we die. But
you have to follow all the rules or
you can't get in.
Who's running this
place? He must be a
really mean son of a
bitch. Dad says it's the
rich bastards. It's
their fault. Why are
they so mean?
Life is a struggle.
Life sucks and then you
die.
When something good
happens, something bad will happen
to take it away.
There is just not enough
of anything except grief and misery.
I am the victim of my
environment (the rich
bastards).
Rich people are
bastards.
Winning is impossible,
because no matter what I do, I'll
lose in the end. I'll
die and then I'll either cease to be
or I'll just get more grief misery.
There's nothing I can
do, so I'll just hide. I
wonder if this misery ever
ends.
I want out of here, but
it's impossible for me to
leave. I have no place
to go. I don't even know
how I got here, or where I came
from, or why I'm here.
When something is right,
God or the angels or somebody else
gets the credit. When
something is wrong, it's my
fault.
Nobody loves
me.
The ladies that they
call nuns at Catechism told me I was
evil and had to beg God to forgive
me. I don' remember ever
doing anything bad.
I must be bad.
They, the big people must know
things that I don't. Why
else would they act the way they do
and tell me those stories about
their murdered hero. Why
would anyone need to suffer and die
for me? Why did I do
that to him? How could I
possible be that bad?
What did I do that was
so terrible?
Where did I come
from?
Why am I
here?
In order survive in this cruel world, I have to
give up being me.
If I fight it, it will go away.
But no matter what I do it will be
back again, and I'll have to fight
it all over again.
What happens when I
die.
Where is
grandma?
Why did I have to eat
the broken cookie?
Why?
Why?
Who gets the not-broken
cookie?
It's
impossible. It's
inevitable. There
isn't any other
way.
I can't trust
anybody. They lied to me
about Santa Clause. They lied
to me about the tooth fairy.
They lie about
everything. They lied to
me about the God
character. They even threatened
to abandon me to the those big
people that carry guns (the police).
Maybe I'm just dreaming
and this is a nightmare.
But what if this is really all there
is?
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